i have been feeling tired for the past few days. it is a different kind of tired because i have been going to bed by 9pm, 10pm the latest. i have been wrestling. what's wrong with me? i exercise for about 1.5 hours a day. i have been doing bible study and prayer most days. what is wrong with me?
am i tired physically? no.
am i tired spiritually? somewhat.
am i tired professionally? not really. God, what's wrong with me. i resort to my old school way of prayer. i write out the verse: 'cast all your cares upon Me for i care for you.' i wrote down everything that concerned me personally, spiritually, professionally, academically, emotionally/psychologically, familial, and ministerial.
as i look at the list, i see what is wrong with me. i am able to see specifically is irking me.
God did i put this in your hands and take it out?
God can You tell me what to do so i can do it.
God, You are my Shepherd, i am sorry for not seeking Your face and seeking Your Word.
God i am tired of this relationship, if it is okay with you, i would like it to end. if it not okay with You, is there a way it can be resolved?
God, i am sorry for treating You like a magician rather than God of my life. speak Lord for i am listening.
Matthew 11:28-30 states: 28. come to Me, all (you) who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. 29. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30. for My yoke (is) easy and My burden is light."
God's arms are always open. God desires to keep us under the shadow of God's wings. God is Abba. Find rest in God.
God, i come to You with labor's i created, labors i instigated, and labors i want to resolve. God i want rest that comes from You. God i take the yoke you have to for me. God i lay my burdens at Your feet. God You are the author of peace and not of confusion. God show me in Your Word what You would have me do. God i receive Your gentle and lowly heart. God i receive the rest you have for me. God i receive Your easy yoke. God i receive Your light burdens. in Jesus' name, amen.
have a nice thanksgiving. thank God each day for God's blessings. do not commit gluttony. its not worth the stomach ache or the weight gain.
