on February 17th, 2010, a new phase of my life began. well it actually began before that because i had to get my feet wet. i wanted to do lent different this year because i see myself differently. i am at the point in my life where i am fed up with what i see in the mirror and i want the new me to arise. it is like praying about a relative who gets on your nerves then saying, 'okay, God. what about me, gets on people's nerves? what are my weaknesses? how can i be a better me? would i want to answer the phone and say, 'Monique, let's hang out.' or would i let it go to voice mail.' as a Christian, you can get bored waiting for someone to point to out a sin. each day, when i sit at God's feet, i am saying Lord, clean me up. Lord, deliver me. Lord, i want to be made whole. Lord, redeem me. God, i want to be the woman of God that You have called me to be.
do you ever read the Word and just get hungry for the promises, the covenants, the blessings, the commandments, because we are children of God? i do not believe that Christians know what they could have if they just read the Word of God, prayed the Word of God, lived the Word of God, believed the Word of God.
the bible promises a complete makeover to those who would confess that they needed one. God can transform your heart, your mind, your soul, your attitude, your wardrobe.
do you want to wrestle with God to become the woman, man, girl or boy that God is calling to you be or are you just happy with the person that you see in the mirror?
Sarai became Sarah.
Abram became Abraham.
Jacob became Israel.
sinners became Christians.
Genesis 32:22-32
22 And he arose that night and took his two wives, his two female servants, and his eleven sons, and crossed over the ford of Jabbok. 23 He took them, sent them over the brook, and sent over what he had. 24 Then Jacob was left alone; and a Man wrestled with him until the breaking of day. 25 Now when He saw that He did not prevail against him, He touched the socket of his hip; and the socket of Jacob’s hip was out of joint as He wrestled with him. 26 And He said, “Let Me go, for the day breaks.”
But he said, “I will not let You go unless You bless me!”
27 So He said to him, “What is your name?”
He said, “Jacob.”
28 And He said, “Your name shall no longer be called Jacob, but Israel;[b] for you have struggled with God and with men, and have prevailed.”
29 Then Jacob asked, saying, “Tell me Your name, I pray.”
And He said, “Why is it that you ask about My name?” And He blessed him there.
30 So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel:[c] “For I have seen God face to face, and my life is preserved.” 31 Just as he crossed over Penuel[d] the sun rose on him, and he limped on his hip. 32 Therefore to this day the children of Israel do not eat the muscle that shrank, which is on the hip socket, because He touched the socket of Jacob’s hip in the muscle that shrank.
God, i am Jacob. i am a conniver. i am a liar. i play favorites. i manipulate relationships. i am not a good parent. i am not a good spouse. yet God, You have called me to live a holy life. God, You have called me during this Lenten season to become a person who tells the truth, who lives by faith, who tithes, who prays, who does bible study each day, who trust You more than any person, place or thing. God i meet You at peniel because i want to change permanently. i am sick of sin. i want to be made whole. God i will not let You go until You bless me. in Jesus' name, amen.
lent is a period of consecration in the life of Christians. do you want to be made whole?
