my life with God is different now. i am not sure if i can put it in words. i have been this way before but I did not get off at the same exit. you know how you look in the spiritual, physical, emotional, professional, and psychological mirror and you hear God say, 'i am not satisfied with where you are in life.' you actually nod your head in agreement. you understand because you are not happy. you are bored where you are. you want more of God. you want more happiness. you want the Joy that the world cannot understand. you approach the foot of the cross and you say, 'Abba, i need to die to my will and accept the plans that You have for me. i am ready to obey You. i am ready to trust You. i am ready to become the me that You are calling me to be. i want to fulfill the purpose that You have for me.'
Jeremiah 29: 11 - 13 states 11. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. 12. Then shall ye call upon me, and ye shall go and pray unto me, and I will hearken unto you. 13. And ye shall seek me, and find [me], when ye shall search for me with all your heart.
Abba, You are God. I am not. You have a life of peace that no one can take from me and a future laid out for me. You created me for a purpose. God i call to You. You are the Author and the Finisher of my faith. God, I want more of You. God I want more of You. God, I am glad that I shall seek You and find You because I search for You with all my heart, in Jesus' name, amen
search, seek, find.
