i do not want to embarass God.

last Sunday, we had our culmination services for the women's season. at the end of the sermon, of the afternoon service, the minister asked the question, 'how many of you have been praying the prayer, 'God i do not want to embarrass you.'' internally, i thought 'okay the whole altar is about to be full.' yet i can only recall one or two people moving. i did not worry though. i had already prayed that people obeyed the voice of Holy Spirit, in terms of how they respond to God throughout the service. so i went up for prayer and returned to my seat.

i am not sure about how you feel about prayer and the altar. it is a constant battle with me. each time i enter in the sanctuary, whether it is for leading Friday night prayer, attending a meeting, attending Sunday school, attending bible study, or for a worship service, wherever i sit, Holy Spirit asks me the same question, 'is, there anything, anyone, or any unconfessed sin, that is going to prevent you from worshipping Me in spirit and in truth?' After I talk to and listen to Holy Spirit's counsel, I am usually good. if i operate in arrogance, i usually have to bow at the pew, bow on the floor, or make my way to the altar during service. you know how the lepers had to cry out, 'unclean, unclean' when they went into town. i feel dirty spiritually when i do not listen and talk to God about everything that concerns me.

in Matthew 7:3-5 states: 3"why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your sister's / brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye? 4. how can you say to your sister/brother, 'let me take the speck out of your eye,; when all the time there is a plank in your own eye? 5. you hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your sister's / brother's eye.

God, i know that i am not the wo/man that You have called me to be. God forgive me for taking advantage of Your grace and Your mercy which is new every morning. Lord, You said if we confess our sins that You are faithful and just to forgive our sins and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Father, forgive me for be a hypocrite. Father, forgive me for being arrogant. God, i receive Your love. Abba, i love you. Thank You, for loving me. Thank You for delivering me. Thank You for removing my specks and my planks through repentance, confession, deliverance, mercy and grace. in Jesus' name, amen